A true story of life's struggle of envy faced by a young Papua New Guinea man who have decided to go back to his village straight after his graduation. At the end of his life's struggle Mr. Peter Babul said that he found what's missing in 1 Corinthians 13:1-3, 'AGAPE'. The 'AGAPE' has cured the struggle of envy in him. Read Mr. Babul's story and be inspired.
MY STRUGGLE WITH ENVY - TRUE LIFE STRUGGLE STORY OF PETER BABUL
My 10 decision to go back to the Village straight after Graduation cost me a lot. Coming out as the top Graduate in my group I knew it would be easy for me to just get a job, buy a house, car, start a family and live a normal life as an Employed person.
But that wasn't the life I wanted. For I wanted Freedom. I wanted to own a Business and gain the freedom to do whatever I want. And I was willing to give 5 years of my life to finding that. However, little did I know that it would take 10 years of my life from 2011 to 2021.
Now at the start I was enthusiastic, passionate, and full of Energy. But as time when by, I struggled with a Problem that lasted for all those years. Envy. And even though I was a very determined person, this Problem slowly chewed out my energy and focus. And then this caused me to Procrastinate.
It started off with Employment. In the first year while I busied myself in my Garden (which usually gets damaged by our neighbors pigs) I noticed my friends getting jobs.
As time went by, each one started to get married until almost all of them did.
Then I started noticing friends driving around. Then flying around to different Provinces and Countries. Then they started having kids, bought cars, and eventually bought houses.
I'm actually proud of all my friends. Pleased to see how we've all grown and matured. Seeing them post their achievements on Facebook and LinkedIn, I go in with others commenting our Congratulations here and there.
But in a different part of me, I struggled with this Problem of Envy. And this problem gave me negative feelings. And I felt lost along my road to freedom. In the end I felt as if I all my friends were 10 years ahead of me. They had everything and I had nothing.
This Problem also affected my relationships. I felt that in a girl's inbox and in person, I'm up against other guys who have jobs, houses, cars and money. I couldn't compete with them. Am I even husband material?
But in the end, I found that where it seemed like everyone had everything, we all were still struggling with our demons. And not everyone lived happily ever after. Disney tricked us when we were kids. Lots of relationships didn't work out. Something was missing.
I was lost for a very long time but now I'm pleased that I found what's missing in 1 Corinthians 13:1-3. AGAPE. Normally translated as Love.
Someone once said that if I nothing but I had God, then I still have everything.
1 John 4:8 points out that God is Love (Agape).
So if you don't have everything but you have Agape then you have everything. But if you think you have everything but you don't have Agape then you have nothing.
So you must focus on YOU whether you have Agape or not. That's the most important thing in life.
"Really, what good will it do a man if he gains the whole world but loses his life? Or what will a man give in exchange for his life?"- Matthew 16:26.
And so Agape cured the Envy in me.
I do have everything.
- Peter Babul.